Tuesday, June 22, 2004
"Take the dog out, Summer!"
"You're being irresponsible again, Summer!"
"I don't care how many times you claim that you took her out. I smell pee-pee in here, and I am altomatically blaming you!"
"Why don't you grow up, Summer?"
It is comments like these that I wonder why I am such a bad shape as I am.
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Bweh... I think I'm going to change the outlook pretty soon... I guess I am getting sick and tired of it. I'd like a simple look, but I am a picky person. *laughs* I guess we'll see.
Anyway, I was dragged to Disneyland, and came back with a flu. OHJOY. Now I have been bed-ridden lately, though I am able to stay up right now without getting sick to my stomach. However, my stomach is telling me to go back to bed. I think I'll obey it soon.
Argh... I hope I don't go to Disneyland again anytime soon. I need a vacation away from that vacation.
Saturday, June 5, 2004
No more stupid high school.
No more uncaring friends who seem to hug everyone else beside me.
No more people ranting how good they are with their clubs and cliques, only to leave me snaring at them.
No more pathetic talks about their own social life, but forgetting to ask if I cared.
No more abandonment and being the only one not invited to their stupid parties.
No more worries. No more pain.
No more high school.
Rest in hell, you awful goddamn bastards.
Wednesday, June 2, 2004
Oh, what ecstatic joy. Thanks to these stupid pills I am taking, I am now sick. I couldn't go on my trip... I even had $50 to spend. Oh well. *saves money for DVDs* That's if my mom don't steal it from me...
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Something odd and unusual just happened to me today.
Someone just came up to me and asked me for my opinion. AT SCHOOL. Not only that, but about art. ART.
I'm amazed. I really am. Most of the people at my school are idiots. But this guy... he draws very good. He even drew a picture inspired by this picture, which is in my school's yearbook. (Personally, I think it is terrible, but that's just me)
God damn it, I should've had him sign my yearbook. Or at least get his name.
But still. I hate school. I get out in one more day. YAY.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
"OMG, you are not supposed to check e-mails at school! Whinewhinewhine."
Oh, and yeah, you're supposed to copy the answer book when you cannot figure out a problem. Yeah, that's how we learn things.
There is a reason why you're in the retarded classes. Idiot.
Another kid: "Dur, this game is for preschoolers."
Call me picky, but I think most preschoolers can count past 10. Nevermind, I think this game might be a CHALLENGE for you.
Sheesh. Some of these "special" kids need to get their attitudes adjusted.
Speaking of retards, I think I won't be using Neopets anymore. Why? It sucks and is lame. Though I may not like Gaia, I think it is better than Neopets anyday.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
La la... only 3 more days of hell, and I shall be free. Free to not give a damn about these morons at my school. Free to forget all about my horrid school friends and to disintegrate my life into the virtual utopia that is my computer. Free to work on my South Park Slash in peace and quiet, in hopes someday I can draw Kyle with a decent penis. OHHOWIWONDER.
I lost some braincells today. You see, an inconfident wannabe named Jillian hooked up her DVD player wrong. I came about to correct her, saying that the red cable needs to be hooked up (in order to make stereo sound come out). However, she was bitchy and wouldn't listen to me. Of course. Since I didn't feel like slowly explaining to her the physics of a television and there is reason WHY there are two speakers on the sides, or just about everything these days. However, I'd waste my time and breath. She'll disappear into obliviation in a week or so anyway.
Her movie sucked. It was about school shootings. I like that, yes, but I perfer Bowling For Columbine much better. It gets to the point, unlike this stupid movie, which hides the ideas in a lame, stereotypical story.
Damn, I wanna watch the South Park Movie again. I want MP3s, dammit.
I wonder if the movie is out on DVD... if so, I'll be happy. VERY HAPPY.
Thursday, May 20, 2004
I've been pissed at the world lately. Don't know why.
Neopets is pissing me off again. It hasn't done any crime, yet, but it still seems so... retarded. The whole Neopoints thing just kicked in.
But... ha ha! A owner of a RP guild used to yell at me for not being "active": otherwords, she wanted me to submit a new work every day, at least. Now she isn't active herself! What a stupid, hypocritical fuck! I guess she realized that people have a thing called LAZINESS, and sometimes we don't give a damn about our damn Lupes.
I still hate Neopets. Why is that link up, I will never know.
Kohca got FROZEN! HAHAHAHAHA! Hopefully, she stepped on the toes of the
dictators Neopets staff and got frozen. I always hated her. Stupid bitch.
I love this blog. I can say how much I hate people, and no one will ever read it! :O HA!
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Laura... I wonder where she's been? I keep on forgetting to send her letter... I hope she's okay.
I am going to make another blog design. I think I am getting sick of this one, plus I need to update the links.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Argh... my ISP is being a bitch. I been having trouble getting on. Rrr.
Plus I have to do some stupid D.O. project... I am hoping there'd be no more projects, but NOOO. Hopefully, I can get out of doing the rest of it, since I leave school in about 8 days.
Friday, May 14, 2004
I've had so much to write about, but I haven't had the time.
First of all, I only have 11 days or so of school left. As you can see, I am quite happy about it. ^_^ I didn't think I'd care so much about leaving, but suddenly I am. I guess it is because I don't have to see those dimwits again for the rest of my life.
Second, I got myself into a debate about homosexuality. However, I was put into a group with a bunch of people who couldn't debate. Two didn't even try, and the third tried, but wasn't any good at it (I can understand). However, if it weren't for one person stepping out, I wouldn't have been in there. I mean, what's wrong with letting people choose which side they're on? Really. Don't just throw people together. Have a brain, DAMMIT.
And I really wanted to do that course on AIDS/HIV, too...
And... I can't really think of much else.
Monday, May 10, 2004
Argh... I feel so ill right now...
Mom decided to kick Hilary out. Well, not "officially." She just told her to move back with her parents, if she can. However, even though the prospect of being on my own again gives me joy, I feel very guilty. Sure, it was mom's decision, but I cannot help it.
I have a bad headache, and am thirsty as heck. Everytime I drink, I get even thirstier.
Friday, May 7, 2004
I got a personal writing journal. Of course, it probably won't replace this one; that journal is for VERY personal writings. Of course, I will share them to my friends (if they want to see them), but otherwise, I don't want the journal to be found out. Of course, Tsukasa, you'll be one the ones reading them primarily. :D
Now all I need is to find a good hiding place...
Also, I like Neopets again. Yet I still hate it. Odd? Of course. I am a hypocrit.
I say "of course" a lot in this entry. I hate the words, but I use the damn phrase all the time. It's a bad habit.
Wednesday, May 5, 2004
Well... I guess it is a "no."
Why am I not so upset, though?
Perhaps that is because I felt it beforehand. I don't know. But I'm not mad at Laura. It isn't her fault. ^^ College is important, weither it can be a bitch or not.
Ah well. Maybe I'll be crying later. I don't know. But for right now, I'm not really all that upset. Disappointed, yes, but not upset.
Monday, May 3, 2004
Life is but a worthless irony. A shitty, stupid, worthless irony.
For once in my life, I was happy. I had something to look forward to. I thought things were finally turning up for me. For once in my life, I had hope.
Now, it is all for naught. It was stolen away from me, just as everything else was stolen. Every pride, every expectation... gone.
For once in my life, I wanted a close friend. Who I could hug. Who I can talk to. Who would accept ME for ME. Now, that hope is stolen. And all I want to do is die.
Monday, May 3, 2004
Ah... about two big projects were lifted from my shoulders. I am so happy now. The only class I have to really worry about is College Prep, and then, I just have to do my work and I'm sure to pass.
Perhaps I'll get through this year in one shape after all.
Sunday, May 2, 2004
I've deleted some of my posts here. Why? Because they were rude to someone. It's not like me to be mean, really. So, they're gone. Besides, they were done when I was in a more irritable mood.
On a side note, I added a Quizzes page, so you can see some of my quiz results. Better than posting them here and annoying everyone.
Sunday, May 2, 2004
I am happy and sad and pissed at the same time.
Laura can go with us to Disneyland! Woo! I hope she gets online soon.
I discovered how stupid Neopets is. I got pets named God_And_Jesus_Sucks, Buddah_Sucks (yes, a typo), and Buffy_Sucks. And they were deleted. However, I got a pet named Rhi_Sucks, and it didn't get banned. Weird. I still hate Neopets, mind you; I just wanted to check out Rhi's marvelous Loser. Yee. :3 I should draw 'im.
I hate politics. Rely on some nut to get me irritated. As Rhi said, "The stupidity I endure is beginning to take its toll." At least he isn't replying back. And HOPEFULLY the topic will be locked.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Well, since making this message... I've been afraid that Hilary will find out and hurt me. I guess that's a fear I have... it is just that I get so lonely sometimes. Do you understand? I hope you do... I wouldn't know where I'd be without you.
I'd hate to lose everything again... that is all. I guess I fear stupid things like that.
In order to make this post not a waste, here's something I wish to share... to you.
"I just feel like ranting right now... *sigh* I would feel a bit happier if I had a big load over my heart removed... my love troubles.
You see, I have a boyfriend named Vapr... I don't know if I love him anymore. I don't know if I loved him at all... When we first went together, I just felt... funny. Not like I found my soul mate, but funny... I admit, when we were first together, I thought about him a lot. I even told my friends about him... I was so happy to be with him... now... I feel as though it was all a lie.
Maybe it is because I am seeing him too much... maybe a break will help me spark up the old feelings... but I fear it won't help. I just hate to lie to him everytime I say "I love you". I don't want to do it... but I fear I have no choice. I really hate to break his heart... one time, I asked him what would happen if I broke up with him, and he said he'd feel completely crushed and would probably get depressed... *sigh*
I just feel... wrong. I find myself having crushes with other cartoon characters, and I don't know why. I guess Prince Charming hasn't come yet... but with my luck, he will probably never come. I just want to know what is happening... I just want to know what the future will hold for me... Someday I might find the answer... yet someday I think I won't...
But for now, I am going to stay with him. I am going to give him all the chances in the world, for I know he deserves them. He is just a sweet guy... but I think there are better people out there for both of us... he is just so different... We are simular in many things, but those things I fear are just too small... at least in my heart... He likes roads, forests, the outdoors, road stuff, traveling... I like other things... I just don't like the things he likes... I hate to say this, but I fear I am stuck with a red neck. My faith in him succeding in life is falling... I don't know why, but he hasn't even gotten a job yet. My friends don't seem to like him, and my family probably hates him... *sigh*
But I will not let that bother me. I will give him as many chances as I can... but someday... I just know that there is someone else out there... that is more like me... Maybe someday I'll find him... maybe someday I won't...
*sigh* I'll just see what the future holds."
From October 2001. How so much changes.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Once again, for some odd reason, no one ever tried to contact me to bring me to a friend's birthday party. Perhaps they thought I was gone... maybe. However, I never get invited to any birthday party to begin with. Sure, they might call it jealousy, but that's how I feel.
Not to mention Chrissy's boyfriend is here, so I can look forward to her yapping about him more than usual. As if she doesn't talk about him enough. Yawn.
Now do you understand why I hate people at my school?
Monday, April 26, 2004
Sure, it still has work to do, but I think it is a lot better than the last one. I also have links and link-to-me pictures! I am much happy.
I gotta work on other things right now. For now, however, just bask in the glory of a new layout...